Texting Romance- The Nightmare is REAL

I am not talking about sex-ting, that is in a whole other category on it's own. What I want to focus on is the courting part of texting, when you like each other and you send each other little cute messages, and chat about whatever. That crucial time, where you don't want to over read into what is being said but you don't really know what he is saying generally. I say "he" in this example because I am hetero and boring. You can substitute whatever for your own personal experience.

This is one of the worst times for any person who is dyslexic, because most of the time this form of communication is not our best. At least it's not mine. I miss read a lot of texts, and then end up replying with something stupid. Then the back tracking happens and I am all flustered, and feeling dumb while whoever I am texting is making fun of me. Usually it's my friends and they know that I have super powers with reading, so they let me off the hook. But dating really sucks when you aren't sure how to respond, or if what you read was really what was meant how it was written.

Have I twisted your brain yet?

GIF's have changed the game and made it better, but it's still a sticky median. So how do you be more upfront with the person you are talking to in a romantic sense knows that you aren't an idiot? I don't know. It's something that takes time, and courage to be vulnerable with someone you don't know. I have had some horrifying experiences, where the guy stopped talking to me after I revealed myself as a dyslexic. Sure, he did me a favor in the long run, but in the meantime, it knocked my confidence.

Then there are the dumb acronyms which aren't acronyms, the BRB, TTYL, LMAO, OMG! Those bitches. And the ones I mentioned are the easy ones, I can figure those out, or at least Google them, but what about the ones that are harder? PEBKAC? RTFM? IMNSHO? and DGMW? I mean, seriously? WTF!!! How the hell am I supposed to come off cool, sexy and confident when I have no idea what the hell you just said?!? Can we please stop doing this? It's not even a acronym.

And if you are wondering, 'Why don't you just ask?' I have! And let me tell you, in my experience, that has been a disaster. Because you are not only outting yourself before you are ready, but you also look like you aren't hip with the current culture. Which to be very honest, who the hell is anyway??

Dating is tough, it's painful in Los Angeles, and it's amplified with my social awkwardness around my disability. Any time some guy seems a little interested, there is a back thought in my head that says "you think I am cute now, but just you wait buster!" Or something along those lines.

Then there is the new wave spirituality shit, that says what you experience is what you think, which can't have total truth to it, cause there would be way more chaos and hell fire from the dyslexics mind of how frustrated we are with dealing with other people who just don't get it. I don't mean to generalize, I don't, but it can be so overwhelming at times.

So, obviously, I haven't met the right guy, maybe it's not in the cards. I don't know. I try not to think about it, and just focus on getting my career off the ground. I know that by not always putting myself out there, hinders my prospects. But that's ok. I am picky anyway.

All I wanted to get out today with this post, is that if someone reveals to you that they have a learning disability, like dyslexia, be a good person, and cut them some slack. We are all a little weird about dating because it's a weird thing, and we all have insecurities, so just accept them for who they are, cause I am sure there will be something about you that is pretty shitty to deal with. Yeah, I said it, no one is perfect.